Future

Today I met with my friend, and we were talking about some random stuff as always. One thing lead to another, I said that in 20 years i will 'blah blah' and we talked a little about our lives in 20 years. I imagined myself living in Hawaii with my second husband because my first husband turned out to be asshole and i moved there from NYC. 
Sounds like crazy plan for life?
YES
Do I even care?
No!
I realized one thing though.
I don't wanna wake up in 10 years or even 20 in bed, sent my kids to school, go to work, then come back, eat dinner with family and then sleep, then wake up and repeat the process.
I don't want routine.
I don't even know what I will be doing in 5 years, 
Maybe i will be finishing university...
..or maybe i will be in Africa helping kids
I have no idea
I don't know what I want to do for living.
Or how many kids I will have.
I mean, I could plan, to have job in bank and have 2 kids 
BUT
Life defines plans.
So I don't see a point in planning life.
Because I don't want to be dissappointed if they won't work out.
I want to explore
See where life takes me.
Maybe I will end up in brazil or maybe in Australia.
Maybe I will be a bank account or maybe a teacher.
I want to do things, go and see new places, learn, explore and admire world.
Maybe in 20 years my life will be stable but as for today i don't know what it will be like in 20 years.


Karolina x

What does love even mean?

Ted Mosby, I must admit that these are the truest words you've ever said and I've ever heard.

Okay, okay.

But what if...

what if there's no 100% accurate definition of "love"

I mean everybody has their own definition of love, so love is very universal. 

We cannot say somebody's idea of love is wrong because we think so. 

No, that would be really wrong to behave like that.

We cannot also say that if somebody has fallen in love at age of 18 it'll fall apart quickly because they are young.

No, love comes at different ages for everybody.

Some find it at age of 18 some at age of 35.

That's just how it is.

We may say it's unfair, that some people have to wait more for love. 

But maybe they aren't ready for it until certain age.

Love is such a weird and complicated thing/emotion/whatever.

or maybe there's no love, and we just made it up to feel better, to not feel alone.

Heh, love- weird and undefined yet one of the most important things in our life.

Karolina x