Mindless living

You're not a dead, 
but
you're not alive either.
You're just a ghost with a beating heart.
You're laughing with people at school,
but you're not happy.
You have lots of friends, 
but you still feel lonely.
You're going to parties, 
but you're not having fun. 
You are there, 
physically.
In classroom, 
in club, 
in your room,
or at doctor. 
But you're not there with your minds. 
Just your body standing.
You just can't seem to be there, 
because whenever you try to catch a moment, 
whenever you try to have fun,
your minds wander away.  
you want to be alive, 
but even if you're desperately trying to
you just can't. 
There are other things on your minds,
that keep you away. 

Karolina x