hopeless romantic

Fragile heart.
The amount of times it has been broken, 
it's uncountable. 
But every scratch is like a water, 
it helps it grow stronger, 
helps it heal. 
Yet the tragedy is quite clear, 
no matter how strong it grows, 
once it feels love again, 
it becomes fragile again.
Love is the drug, 
for that little fragile heart. 



Karolina x

Set free

A bird locked out of cage,
set free, 
fly,
whispered a voice inside his head, 
but, 
what does this freedom even mean?
An open door,
possibilities, 
but no plan.
Where to start?
How to spread this wings after you forgot how to fly?
How to wake up from this hibernation?
One step out of cage, 
feels unreal,
deep breathe to take it all in,  
the feeling of unknown.
There's something electrifying in the atmosphere.
New adventure, 
new chances.
Wings are spread, 
colors burst in the air,
as they make the first move.  
Fly,
a voice inside screamed. 
Excitement rushed through veins.


Karolina x

no regrets

If I died tonight,
I wouldn't change the past, 
nor would I erase mistakes I made, 
or bad memories.
I wouldn't.
If I died tonight, 
I would thank for everything, 
the bad and the good, 
the moon and the sun, 
the lie and the thruth.
The ugly made me appreciate the beautiful more.
See 
Life's too short, 
and regretting is unnecessary.
Every decision you make, 
everything that you do, 
all those small and big moments, 
they lead you to where you are.
Why regret things you once wanted, 
things that seemed like a good idea at a time.
They made you who you are.


Karolina x

Oh darling, no

When it comes to defining love, 
I will stand by Ted Mosby's words.
Love is different for everyone.
Love can be complicated, 
we are just humans after all, 
we give more than we take, 
we are taken for granted, 
that's just natural cycle of life. 
But one thing you shouldn't do when you love someone ...
... is change.
If the person you fell head over heels with wants you to change, 
it's not real. 
If you have to say sorry for who you are, 
for what you do, 
it's not real. 
If you don't feel like you're enough for them to love you back, 
it's not real.
If you can't do something because you're afraid of this person reaction, 
it's not real.
If you're missing opportunities in life because of this person, 
It's not real.
If you feel like you're held down, 
it's not real.
It's not how it's supposed to be,
After all true love can only make better person.
True love understands.
Gives you space, 
to be who you really are. 


Karolina x

The Loss

At first I felt nothing,
like it never happend.
First days were spent with friends,
I was never alone,
therefore there was no time to feel,
to feel the feelings that cumulated in me for days.
I honestly felt nothing.
Then I saw you,
you looked happy,
and that's when it hit me.
The feelings I've been holdin' inside me for all this time, 
they exploded.
I realized what happened,
and there was no turning back.
So many thoughts going on in my head at once. 
So many words I wanted to express,
but the pain made me numb, 
pain made me unable to write few words, 
so writting something longer to express the feelings, 
yes, it felt impossible.
I wanted to pick up all the pieces and understand.
but when I did...
I blamed myself for everything.
Making tea made me cry,
because I was trying to understand,
when did it all went wrong,
which day was the day.
Then I stopped blaming myself,
instead I blamed you.
I blamed you for not telling me what was going on,
I blamed you for not fighting,
I blamed you for not believing in me,
I blamed you.
But the blame is mutual.
It's OUR fault,
not mine or yours.
When I was aware of that,
I could move on.
But here comes the tough part.
Understanding that life happens can be painful.
Putting up with real life can be painful.
But coping with a loss of someone that was the most important person in your life,
someone who you made plans and dreams with,
this
this can be the most painfull thing.
But,
there's no rainbow without rain.


P.S.: This one is very personal, so don't judge, we all deal with life differently. I write. 


Karolina x